It's been a few days since I posted. So, here I am writing. Not sure what to say. Been spending some time with the extended family. I'm trying to reconnect after a prolonged estrangement, and although at times akward, it's going surprisingly well. I'm happy to be here and happy to see all of them. I hadn't even met my baby cousin John Carl yet, and he was born in the fall (or winter depending on where you divide the seasons). It's been great meeting the adorable little guy and spending time with my grandparents, uncles and aunts, little cousins, and my mom. It reminds me of who I used to be before the whole mess began and what I want in moving forward from here.
Though I am a completely changed woman in so many ways, family and the bonds and love therein are still incredibly important to me. I was lost without them much in the same way I felt lost without literature and academia. I cannot stand to disappoint them again and betray their trust again. Thus my resolve has been further fortified by these few days spent with them and the perspective this stay has given me. I love them all with all my heart, and nothing is going to make me put these relationships at risk again.
Though I am a completely changed woman in so many ways, family and the bonds and love therein are still incredibly important to me. I was lost without them much in the same way I felt lost without literature and academia. I cannot stand to disappoint them again and betray their trust again. Thus my resolve has been further fortified by these few days spent with them and the perspective this stay has given me. I love them all with all my heart, and nothing is going to make me put these relationships at risk again.
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