the idiot

e-mailed me a few weeks ago. I didn't respond...at first. And then yesterday, i couldn't help myself. I had to say something. What I said was not encouraging by any means. It was only five words. I regret sending it, because in a way that gave him a window.

I really like the guy that I'm talking to now. But the trust just isn't there. I don't trust him, or anyone. I'm still broken and damaged. And, I don't know when I'll be able to put myself back together again. I guess that's all I have to say for now. I think I could really care about this new guy if I can figure out how to trust him...or he earns my trust. I guess we'll see. For now, I have cookies in the oven. Yum, yum. :-)