The primary ingredient

Stealing a line from "Dawn of the Dead"..."trust, the primary ingredient in any relationship." While it came from a horror movie, doesn't make it any less true. I love that movie, and that quote...even though the quote is a little simplistic. I'm in the process of teaching myself to trust people again after having any trusting bone in my body ripped out and crushed by one person in particular, but also by friends, etc...who also betrayed my trust in the past year and a half or so.

Its no easy feat to try to rebuild after all that, but when you don't trust, you make yourself miserable. I know this from experience. While I got used to every word out of someone's mouth being a lie, that doesn't mean that everyone is that way, just because he is. Unfortunately this is something I have to tell myself multiple times a day, which sounds ridiculous, but if you had spent over a year tearing apart everything someone told you trying to sift out the highly limited amount of truth from the lies, then you might be untrusting and paranoid too. Although it is justifiable, it doesn't mean I should just allow it to continue. That's not the person that I want to be, and not the person who I was before he came along. So the daily mantra is "everyone is not a liar" and "you can't always assume that someone is lying to you." That's all I've got for today. Nightie night.