Moving Forward

Leaving the jerk who almost killed me by the wayside for the moment, I'm trying to focus my energies and mind on school. I just started my newest summer session today. I'm only taking one class this time, a film class studying Censorship and Hollywood, basically. We're starting off talking about so-called pre-code films (before the censorship code was enforced in Hollywood). I love film classes, in these classes along with English literature classes...this is where I thrive, where my mind feels fully engaged and active.

I ended up really enjoying my history class last session even though there were some days sitting in class that bored me to tears (let's face it...some days sitting still and listening is just so much more difficult than others). I wish I wouldn't have let my relationship with the jerk distract me so much from my studies last session. I still got fair grades, but if I had fully committed myself, I know I would have had excellent grades. I guess last session I was a step above the last two semesters where I just stopped attending classes period. Now this session is my moment to come back in full force. To go to class EVERY day, to do all my work to the best of my ability. I will not let anything that does or does not happen with the idiot have an effect on my work. It's too important to me now. I need to have real goals and a path in life. I can't let him destroy me any further.